Church camp last week was…wow! The services and conversations I had with people there made me have to sit down and actually have a serious talk with God. I spent almost an hour by myself on Thursday crying and talking with God. Asking Him, “Why? Why did you put me on earth, why did You make me the way You did? Why did You put me in a place where I don’t fit in with anyone?” I struggle with not feeling enough and that I am a disappointment to others around me. I’ve always been different and I hate that. People, even Christians, aren’t very accepting of others who aren’t like them.
Someone at church camp brought to me the idea that maybe God’s plan is for me not to fit in. That maybe not fitting in with people now will prepare me for a time in the future when I won’t fit in. I know God doesn’t want us to “fit in” with the world, but I thought that I could at least fit in with Christians around me. But, in reality, the way I think and the way I want to live is not very popular in the “modern Christian” world.
At the end of every service during camp, our camp evangelist would leave us with only one choice. We either accept and follow Christ or we reject Him. There’s no riding the the fence. Something discussed in our day class was the fact that when we compromise we will take the lower standard. So it all comes to one choice: who is more important? God or others?
2 Timothy 1:8-9 — Be not though therefore ashamed of the testimony of our Lord, nor of me his prisoner: but be thou partaker of the afflictions of the gospel according to the power of God; Who hath saved us, and called us with an holy calling, not according to our works, but according to his own purpose and grace, which was given us in Christ Jesus before the world began.